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At the back of your mind

mindI am the memory at the back of your mind

that comes to you when you sleep

I am the memory at the back of your mind

when your heart misses me and you weep

I am the memory at the back of your mind

that makes you smile when your senses

recall happier times

I am the memory at the back of your mind

that tells you, you are not alone

that  I will still keep you safe

I am the memory at the back of your mind

that remind’s you , that although I’m not there

I will always still love you.

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Concealment

concealEmotions out of sight

To be witnessed by none

Concealed weakness

Covert sorrow

Filling my frame no gaps left exposed

Contained, tight lip

Normal

Deep breath, smile

Tears concealed

Your public waits

Off stage

Private space

Mask off

Breakdown

Tears flow

My emotion have escaped 

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Bipolar day blues

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 I’ve been on a real downer today

I been locked in a space my head

With very little to say

I craved addiction again today

I’ve been crying so many tears of sorrow

That my eyes sting with pain

Please let me wake up sane tomorrow

I’ve been shaking too

Constant is the tap in my foot

And there’s a kick in the pit of belly that holds

a sickness that makes me wants to throw up

My legs feel heavy, but they wobble like jelly

There’s a song in my head

Bipolar day blues

An earworm

Constant

Constant

CONSTANT

Is its noise

I want to tell it to shut the Fuck up

I been on a real downer today

I been locked in a space my head

With very little to say

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No Vacancy

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Missing one funny bone

have you seen it?

It’s been missing most of the afternoon

I think someone stole it whilst I was taking a nap

They replaced with the melancholy,

I know melancholy well

It’s vacated here before

I swore I had the no vacancy sign showing

but now it has unpacked its bags

there no sign to say

how long its likely to  stay

lets hope it gone before you know it!

Missing one funny bone 

Have you seen it?

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Emotional overload

Push me too farbreak-up-1

I may fall of the edge

Pay me too little attention

I will cry out for help

Emotional overload boils within the darkest

deepest place in me

No control of how to be

For dark shadows are surrounding me

Emotional overload  drains me of my being

Strips me of all normality and identity

Emotional overload is slowly killing me

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Let me introduce you to my loneliness…

lonelyWill I will tell you of my loneliness

of how it’s pain is unbearable

Will I tell you how it hacks at my brain and

devours my thoughts

Will I tell you how it suffocates my soul

when I am most vulnerable

Will I tell you with my reason, how it teases

and cavorts

How it sits opposite me at the table

How it lies with me at night

How it greets me in the morning

The wanting is endless

The solitude is tedious

The sadness wells and breaks

against every heartbeat

This is my loneliness I eat  with

This is my loneliness I  sleep with

This is my loneliness  I cry with

This is my loneliness

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