Alarm clock rings
Birds sing
Half awake
The bedside lights are still burning
I’m still afraid to sleep in the dark these days
in case the demons return
And I’ve noticed I’ve lost my place in the book I was reading
Before I fell into a dreamlike state
Awake
I am conscious not just of my surroundings
But that my mood has flatlined whilst I’ve been sleeping
Barely I crawl out of bed
I don’t shower
Or dress
Its not the kind of day for effort
I make my way to the kitchen
With glass half empty
And toast on my plate
I pop the pills 1, 2, 3, and 4 onto the toast
But I don’t feel full
Like cheese and beans would make me feel
Tablets on toast just make me feel numb
Until I feel sleepy
Whilst all round me their day has just begun
Mehefin Bolland © 2018
