Leaving
It’s been 8 months 15 days
Since my thoughts disappeared
Into the blueness of my mind
Until nothing of me was left behind
Deeper I withdrew myself a little more
each day
I did not realised you leaving
Lost
It been 8 months 4 days
Since I let you slip away
And my demons arrived to stay
To cavort and taunt me
They would not let me be
I tried so hard to beat them
But soon I began to realise
they had won and I had lost
Hallucinations
It’s been 4 months 22 days
When the voices arrived
They mocked me
I was petrified
I witness my own death
And my own cremation
This was the being of
the hallucinations
Recovery
It’s been 3 months 15 days
I did not know what to do
I called for your help to get me through
Even though we were no longer lovers
You arrived in the middle of the night
You calmed me and reassured me
You told me you be there and help me recover
Survived
It’s been 2 months 2 days
When for the first I day awoke
I could smile
It been a while after all the
days and months sat in darkness
But I realised I was still alive
That I had survived
Copyright 2014 June Bolland