Like my mood
And it’s heavy
It weighs me down
I so wish I could close my eyes
And hope the sunshine would breakthrough
But there’s no control over the weather (it has its own moods to deal with)
I have to be patient and let it pass (this feeling of utter despair)
So with each pill I swallow
I begin to feel these sugar coated chemicals
Cleanse the scars in my head
And with my body now numb
I will myself well (because I deserve to be well)
I barricade myself within the isolation that is myself (away from self-pitying people)
I allow only a chosen few to enter (I shy away from most ,their negativity and their bad days)
Only those who care enough to ask of my wellbeing (because they were not afraid to ask)
These are ones who I allow to witness my pain
For these are the people who are the truest (these are the people who will me well)
Who have no hidden agendas
For you see when your numb and scars are being cleansed
The clarity of really good friends shines through and
Once you’ve pick the wheat from the chaff
All you have left is a queue of ego’s (These are ones who shy away from the stigma that is my depression)
And when I’m well I will remember ALL this
But for those of you who cared enough (because you were not afraid to ask)
Thank you, thank you , thank you
©Copyright 2013 by June Bolland
I really like this… people who were not afraid to ask… these are the truly wonderful people. I hope you find your way up soon, much love x x
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Thank you, I hope so to , I’m very lucky to have those people who aren’t afraid to ask , they will help me up , but more importantly I am surrounded by the love of my partner and my mum.x
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