May contain Rants

Floodgates

breaking

It’s a daily battle holding the

Floodgates closed

For then when you are not near

Only night,

The dark

The loneliness pushes them open

Salt tears burn at my skin

It stings and I like the pain

Because it makes me feel

It’s the only thing that makes me feel

The night it the only time

I am free to be me

Either with you in ecstasy

Or alone in my despondency

Free from the facet of daylight hours

You know I have troubled soul

and a troubled heart and sometimes

I have damaged thoughts too

But here you are steadfast you remain

standing  by me, my keeper of the keys

But It is a daily battle holding

The floodgates locked

I get frightened and push you away

Not because I don’t love you

I so do ,

It that I think our love

Maybe not be enough from keeping

The floodgates from opening

and I don’t want you silently drowning alone with me

©Copyright 2013 by June Bolland.
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