Thinking too much

Some thinking is not good for me, dark thoughts are not good for me, but you know that

Too much thinking breaks me, but you know that

It takes me to places so dark, and I hate the dark, but you know that

I was trying to recall how long I have been skipping between the shadows

It seems like  an age, but you know that

I was thinking about my father today, about my chiIdhood,

his absence and his presence  , how it’s still so painful , but you know that

How I have nightmares and midnight panic’s about how I’m back there, but you know that

That why I do my thinking by the sea ,

I like the swell to carry my dark thoughts , but you know that

How I like to spill my fears and thoughts on the page, but you know that

I was thinking that if you were here you’d have your arms around me , protecting me from dark thoughts, that you’d banish them away like you always do, I know that.

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